This is how it feels

These past weeks have been a frenzy of writing (and rewriting and rewriting), tangling with technology, and watching PayPal buttons collide. All for the purpose of creating a new shenpa / mindfulness program and letting people know about it.

When I finally I hit Publish on the registration page, I felt something completely unexpected.

First there was stillness, coming full stop after so much mental activity. Then there was a palpable and expanding feeling of joy.

Yes, I had the natural concerns. Would anyone actually sign up? Did I really know enough to lead a full program? But these concerns were largely silent, blanketed by indescribable peace.

The technological framework, and my ability to work it, may be precarious. But my realization that I now take up the honor of carrying loving-kindness and awareness practices into the world is not.

I do not think of myself as a “capital t” Teacher. I see myself as enthusiastic explorer who may have more familiarity with the territory than some of you. As I carry these teachings into the world, I’m in awe of the realization that some of what I share may transform you the way the practices have transformed me.

I’ve lead programs before, but they haven’t been about meditation and they haven’t felt like this.

I’m surprisingly free of expectation or envisioning where it all is going. It feels like something new is in the mysterious stages of beginning.

I am part of it, but not the whole cosmos.

There is a small, sweet group coming together for this program that begins next week, continues through February and includes rediscovery calls throughout the year. Everything will be recorded and housed on a private site, so you have permanent access at your convenience.

If you know you get hooked into habitual patterns, hurt by other peoples’ projections or wear yourself out with your own mind-chatter, I encourage you to take a look at the program.

If you know in your heart that there’s a connection between you and I, if you want to exchange your hooks and habits for a spacious mind and heart…

Please scroll down the page and register.

It’s going to be a beautiful exploration. I’d love you to be part of it. I’m grateful to you for letting me give it.

And if it’s not quite your thing or if the timing isn’t right, this blog is turning into a nice little home for all of our hearts.

It’s enough that you’re here.

Tagged as: awareness, meditation programs, mindfulness, shenpa